Tasty and Gray

The weather here is incredibly unpredictable. Bizarre swings occur throughout the day, to the point that one almost has to prepare for all manner of weather within a given twenty-four hours.

At the moment, and for the past couple of hours, it has been woolen gray. Rainy. The sky pisses in an unconcerned manner and I sit here, cozy and dry. I can’t help but marry these weather patterns with those of my moods since arriving here. It seems fitting that Mother Nature should be so moody; her demeanor is mine. For now, we are pensive.

Europe has been beckoning me for many years and I have often wondered why. In a strange way, it has felt as though a piece of my soul has been residing here - originated here perhaps - and has been waiting for some reunion. Is it that a resurrection is necessary before we’ll be able to see the world appropriately? I don’t know, for I have never been able to articulate the nature or power of this force. But it is such that I’ve been unable to turn my back on it - the desire has always been with me to varying strengths. Finally, I have made the journey and I am slowly beginning to understand the lure. I already feel a certain comfort in its embrace, an innate feeling that part of me will be forever bound here.

Though, I don’t feel that London is the heart of it all; she is only my vehicle to greater things. A trial of sorts...in a sense, the hard candy shell of things. I am still licking, tasting, and creeping toward the delicious center. And I don’t yet know what exactly it will contain, nor where I will be when I find it, though there is no doubt of its goodness.

For now, I’m just enjoying the candy. No need to rush…

She is a multitude of things, London; the city cannot be clearly defined. She is not black or white, but gray. There exists a charming and mysterious interplay of cultures, people, colors, smells, styles, textures. One must see this city with many eyes, just as one must prepare for her many moods. All rigidity must be forsaken, and it has been an almost effortless transition…I have easily taken to the ebb and flow.